gungajin

Most of my life, I have been a rebel. My life has been exciting, interesting, impulsive and intuitive. I have been a spiritual seeker since my early twenties and I didn't leave it with reading, I actually lived it out, and to some extend, I still do. My history is a history of adventure, not the big, bashing, gun slinging kind, but more the seeking out what life's about, letting go, drift, and watch where it takes me to. I've never really pursued happiness. Rather, I've pursued fulfilment, contentment, harmony between my self and the world. And I've found it. Not in the places I thought I'd have to look for, instead I found it in: Moments where time, and the world, stands still. Surprisingly, that's the same, and only place, where I also found happiness - purely by coincidence, since i never was pursuing but as a well - appreciated side-catch. How? Well if you want to know that, you'll have to read my blog. I like writing, and I believe I'm actually not quite so bad at it. Language is a phantastic tool and I actually believe that writing is my call in this life. Not that I really believe I have to, want to, even wish to be chosen for having "a call" it's just like, that life, the universe, fate, god, or whatever it is that is steering our ways, seems to be forcing me to converge towards writing. I have resisted for a long time, but I feel I'm getting punished for not giving in to my call, so after the punishment has become increasingly severe, I finally have decided to give in. I've begun to write. And what better place to do so than Word Press? It's a great starting point, let's see where it will lead to. English is not my mother tongue, that actually would be German, the Austrian variation of. But I have lived away from my birthplace and "fatherland" for the larger part of my life and my mother tongue has grown more and more alien to me. Language is not static, it's developing all the time and there's just so much I never have learned in German that I wouldn't be able to express myself in a contemporary way. Mind you, that's probably also the case with English, since it is more than 22 years that I have lived in London. Still, English is such a great universal, global language with myriads of variations, that i won't matter that much. English is the language i prefer for writing. I don't really like this modern day exhibitionism, where everybody believes the self is so important that we have to let the rest of the world know all about it, 24/7, from sexual preferences to the latest grocery shopping list. That's why I don't want to publish my real name. Both my username and my profile name are purely imaginative. Though I am using both in various fora all over cyberspace. Yes, I have a Facebook profile, but only because I don't want to completely loose touch with the few friends I have. I don't think my real name really matters. If you like what I write, you'll read it because you like it, not because of who I am. And apart from not disclosing my real name, I'm not keeping any secrets from readers. My blog is auto-biographic. My own life is all I can write about since I never have specialises in anything else than living my life. But on the other hand there should be plenty of stuff for a good, interesting and maybe even inspiring tale. Enjoy.